"On March 5th 2017, I was a 54-year-old raging alcoholic, dope head, narcissist that was slowly killing myself on purpose. I truly wanted to be alone and check out of life. I destroyed relationships with my wife of 23 years, my three kids, siblings and co-workers. My doctor said that I had less than a year to live if I didn’t change my ways. But I didn’t care. I felt like a simmering pile of dung. And that’s putting it nicely. March 7th 2017, the universe decided to put a person in my way, that looking back now, saved my life, relationships with my kids and siblings (siblings are a work in progress) and co-workers. My ex-wife and I are even great friends now. That person’s name was Wendy Lee Baldwin. I deeply thank the universe for her energy, kindness, commitment, and the love within her that confidently worked with the beast that was me. She started helping me slowly open up my heart and begin to heal the dying and wounded parts of my soul. Without her, I would have been dead before the pandemic. Unfortunately, being who I was at the time, though, I destroyed even more relationships that came into my life after meeting Wendy, creating more regrets. It’s fair to say that I was a monster, hell-bent on blowing up everything that was or could have been good and beautiful in my life. She taught me early on that it was up to me to fix myself. It was my unique journey. I could go as fast or slow as I wanted. And I had to take full responsibility for my life, my actions and behavior. I had created the mess that was my life. This was a hard concept for me to understand and accept. Wendy made it clear that she could lead the way and hold my hand, but it was up to me to say, “Yes” and keep showing up for myself. She kept opening up doors and more doors. She opened up doors that I chose to walk through that I didn’t like. While the journey up to this point was extremely painful and ugly, Wendy never judged me. The healing process isn’t an easy path. I didn’t want to face many things that I had done to hurt people and myself. Some things I resisted to look at for a long time. One of the major things that I noticed about Wendy is that she asks questions. More than I care to answer. But tough cookie. She asked me questions to help me get out of the quagmire of hatred, resentment and blame. I hated and still hate the questions but I have to answer to myself and make restitution where possible. With myself. And others. If Wendy had not had the skills, honesty, and belief in me as a human and a soul, I would have given up on myself. It’s going on six years since I was told that I had less than a year to live. I was 245 lbs., on multiple prescriptions and miserable. I’m now down to 210 lbs. and my health hasn’t been this good in decades. I’m still on a journey that I can’t go back on, as in, there is no turning around and going back to the old version of me. I still go to Wendy even though a part of me hates and resists it. Because of her and the work I’ve done so far, I’m now able to find more gratitude in life. My days start with 10 things I’m grateful for. Some days are easier than others to come up with the answers. It’s getting easier though. If you want someone to just be there for you, you WILL resist and resent Wendy at times. She can’t fix you but she will guide you on your path to self-healing. I’m continuing to put the work in, at my pace. It’s not fun. Some days feel like ground zero. If you’re ready to heal your suffering and internal torment, contact Wendy Lee Baldwin. You’ll love her, resent her, hate her…but most of all, be grateful for her and that you had the courage to show up and be open to possibilities. "

Kenneth T.
Grateful Work in Progress